Associations!!

I grew up in my school understanding that my way to "acknowledgement" is through my "achievements" and that "education" is "painful", then I got exposed to society and became aware of the importance of "richness" to "happiness" and the causality of being "slim" to becoming "beautiful" and that being "popular" is my ticket to being "valued". And, as I was ready for my career, I found the advices everywhere; if you want to be "strong" you have to become "independent" and if you are determined to get ahead you must step on your "feminine" "emotions" and become "macho" like a "man", while through the journey of my career, I experienced the close relationship between "money" and "security".  When the time came for eventually realizing my "fantasy" and starting a  "relationship", I found myself "afraid" of "commitment". I decided I wanted more "freedom" so I became an "entrepreneur", I believed that my "dreams" are a continent away and I grew a passion for "traveling", I wanted to rebel from "obligations" and "responsibility" but I ended up "alone" and "lonely" so I wanted to go back to being "busy" to feel "important", but nothing satisfied me though. I decided to go back and revisit my life and see what could I fix, and I found out that I needed to fix my associations!! The associations that were installed by invisible hands in our systems long ago, associations that passed unfiltered and shaped our beliefs and left us confused in the middle of a very complex equation with misleading variables. Who said that the way to one's acknowledgement is how good an achiever he can become, not how good of a person he is, or that education is a painful journey that we strive to end, not a way of living! Who fabricated the lie that happiness is in materials and not a state of being, or that beauty has standards or that value is in crust and false flashlights. And who was disturbed enough to make women feel shameful for being emotional and oblige men to become macho and feelingless. What were the motives of the movie makers to create fantasies out of every relationship and make it such a false hope for everyone, a magical wand that would touch their lives and turn it into some sort of a Cinderella story!! And why do people sell their commitments as stories of suicide, attaching fear to every detail of it, leaving out the good ordeal to themselves!! In which chapter of success did you find freedom as a recipe!! And who started the naive idea that traveling is synonym to realizing dreams, when hard word, struggle and pain have always been..Yes, the world is so messed up but what is more messed up than the world is ourselves!!